Your nine months of growing in me were difficult. Nothing about carrying you was easy and nothing about bringing you into this world was textbook. From the moment of knowing you were there, I began to learn that being a mom is about refining my heart to trust an all-knowing God who knows you, cares for you, and loves you infinitely more than I do or ever will.
You have an intense desire to experience life to the fullest. Each moment means something. You laugh loud, play hard, work with purpose... and let's not overlook that you even eat and sleep with fervor! From the outside looking in, you've been dealt some difficult cards to manage in the game of life. Some things about how your mind processes, how your body responds, and what your senses tell you make simple tasks really difficult tasks. But you are developing persistence to keep trying and learning, and that's all anyone could ever ask of you. And, I know that while your frustration level on some days is really high, you know that God made you and loves you and will help you.
I am developing patience and an open-handedness as I relate to you and see you as a little boy full of talent and ambition and purpose for things far beyond the scope of just our family. Thank you for reminding me that God is God and I am not. God's purposes are always good and he finds the most delight in us when we are most satisfied in him.
You are one month shy of turning six and your knowledge, wit, and ability to reason are far beyond what I could have imagined. You walk to the beat of your own drum and do so with delight. You think independently and are content to make your own decisions. While you're not one to argue for the sake of arguing, you enjoy a good spirited, ahem, discussion. You have thoughts and ideas and like to articulate them and bring them full circle to be sure everyone around you understands.
You breeze through your schoolwork and it's a task for me to keep you motivated and challenged. Learning comes easily for you and I'm amazed at how quickly new concepts cement in your mind and take root. You don't enjoy "school" but thrive on new chances to learn. In other words, when you're presented with context and a broader meaning to things, you learn with focus and excitement.
Because of you, I'm working on being more open-minded to how things are done. Thank you for helping to remind me that God hasn't painted life in mute tones, but in a pallet of brilliant colors. You have a colorful approach to life, and I'm buckled in for the whirlwind ride of watching you be you and influence others with God's gift of creativity and perspective.
And that's what I'm most thankful for.
Ephesians 2:10 "For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."